It was certainly a massive shock when I read on Twitter that Amy had just died. In fact, I was so much in shock that I could not quite explain exactly what I had just read because it came as a massive surprise to me. How could such a talented young singer die just like that? Only God can tell the brilliant future that was awaiting her due to her talent and genius. On the other hand, I also thought and asked: was there such a future or was the future just a continuous prolongation of pain and suffering? We all know that Amy had a history of drugs and alcohol and of course, there are certain prices to be paid I guess ... Having said that, I have to admit that I was shocked out of my skin. Still, such events make you wonder. They make you wonder about life and death, meaning, purpose and all the rest of it. What is the purpose of life? Is life's purpose not to have a purpose as many seem to be believing these days? Should life be lived one day at a time and just go with the flow? I'm not sure that we are designed for that. I mean, yes one has to let go off the future and the past to a certain extent but not ignored completely. We can learn from the past but it is one thing learning from it and quite another living in it. Some people swing from past to future ignoring the present altogether. That is wrong !!! The present is the only reality there is. What was is no more. What will be is still not here yet ..... so we need to live in the present all the time. I feel that this is the only time when we are true to ourselves and really experience Being in its fullest sense.
One might ask: what does this have to do with Amy Winehouse? Well, I'm sure that it does because for some reason or other someone who decides to commit suicide just does not want to linger and wait for the future to shape up. For some reason or other, the future looks so unbearable that the suicide believes that they are better off without it. We are in no position to judge but of course we have every right to say: what a waste !!! What a tragedy !!! And ultimately it is. But there should be no judgement in that voice. After all, only God knows why one feels that they cannnot face their future. Just because we are not in that situation does not mean that the decision the suicide had taken is wrong. I believe that people do not kill themselves for the sake of it .......... as I said earlier, it is indeed a shame but only because I'm projecting my values onto them, for them going on would be a shame ....
Yes, the world has lost a talented young lady ..... but I believe that Amy Winehouse was experiencing hell and she decided that it was enough .......... we all need a break after all !!! Let us all learn from her story though short. Let us all learn something from it and help us live a better and more present present !!!
